So long, and thanks for all the fish.
It’s been quiet here; what has been going on?
Where are the new episodes?
I am done with my deconstruction.
Ha! Stupid joke; of course I am not done with my deconstruction, rather, I think I am done “processing” it or perhaps better stated, I am done exploring the meaning of it for now. I might come back to it, and likely will, but I don’t think that will serve enough to continue recording episodes.
I found that the process of being so active on deconstruction was in fact, constructing new dogmas. The more I would pursue this internal process, I would find external structures, and my natural inclination is to organize and containerize my thoughts and feelings. It’s the exact opposite of what I am trying to set out to do—free myself from external systems placed (or in some ways, pressed) on me.
Lindsay and I did record another episode a while back, but in editing it, it felt like filler; like it was there just to fill space, and in the end, I didn’t want to publish something that didn’t fit or fill the original intended purpose of this podcast.
Right now, I consider the podcast complete; knowing that my deconstruction is not complete. More likely it will never be complete.
Thank you for listening and sharing your thoughts and feelings with us privately. I will keep the site up and the podcast out there just in case someone stumbles on it and finds it meaningful, it’s here for them.
For now, I am going to continue to find myself by losing and shedding that which I think I know, and allow myself to be moved by new ideas and questions. My season for listening has just started.
However, all is not lost. While I am still don’t consider myself a Christian these days, I am excited to be aware now, there are people that carry a kind of Christianity that I would be proud of—a Christianity that I wish I experienced earlier. After all, I still might be a part of that. But that isn’t my story. For now, I will continue to ground myself, find connections and consider the birds.
So long and thanks for all the fish.1